Maya Angelou said, “There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” The healing power of sharing my cancer story compelled me to found WWGN. I'm an inspirational speaker, contributor at CURE and Positively Positive, Huffington Post blogger, support volunteer with Cancer Hope Network, member of the Carol G. Simon Cancer Center Oncology Community Advisory Board, patient educator with Pathways Women’s Cancer Teaching Project, wife and mother, and a former very stressed out lawyer.
For me, the opposite of scarcity is not abundance. It's enough. I'm enough. Brene Brown
I admit it. I have a scarcity mentality. You'd think I worry a lot about money (sometimes I do), but the resource that strikes fear in my heart most often is time.
As in "there is never enough time."
"I didn't get enough done today."
"How am I ever going to get it all done?"
As I've gotten older and experienced real problems (cancer, anyone?) I've started asking myself different questions:
Why is it difficult for me to relax and enjoy what each moment brings?
Why do I resist trusting myself and knowing that I always manage to get done what needs to get done?
Why do I view new opportunities with anxiety, rather than looking forward to them as blessed adventures?
The answer to each of these questions is: FEAR.
Big, bad, ugly FEAR. FEAR that I'm not enough. FEAR that I will eventually fail miserably. FEAR that, FEAR that, FEAR that......
Hey, what if FEAR is just a bad habit? What if FEAR is merely a conditioned response drummed into me long ago when I was highly impressionable?
What if FEAR is just a feeling and not reality?
What if FEAR that I am not enough is a load of you know what?
FEAR stops me from saying "Yes" to myself. And, when I find the courage to step up, FEAR stomps on the joy of putting myself out there to experience something new.
FEAR makes mindfulness impossible by dredging up needless worry.
FEAR is great in fight or flight situations, but entirely useless when your life is not actually threatened. Imagine getting into a roller coaster if you really believed you were going to die. Would you even show up, let alone get in and strap yourself into the seat? I think not.
No, it's nervous energy that lets you push your boundaries and gets you into that seat. It's nervous energy that expresses itself screaming and laughing all the way up and down, up and down, UP, UP, UP and DOWN, DOWN, DOWN. That screaming and laughing is mindfulness in its purest form.
When I was six, I remember the fun and nervous energy of appearing in my first (and last) play. I was Mopsy in Peter Rabbit. That cutie-pie standing next to me is Danny Allegro (who played Peter Rabbit to rave reviews.) I remember his mother taking our picture and I remember the joy of being a kid and doing something new and fun.
This leads me to what I'm up to this week. On Saturday, April 5th, I'm giving the keynote address at the 5th Annual Blood Cancer Conference of the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society, at the Great Wolf Lodge in Mason, OH. I've been practicing my talk for weeks, I've got my plane tickets and I even bought a new dress. I'm fending off a little FEAR, but mostly I'm very excited. I'm relying on nervous energy to make me a better, more creative, transformational speaker, and put me squarely in the joy of the moment - just like it did when I was six.
Are you in the Cincinnati area? If so, come say hello. I'd love to meet you, so have no FEAR and walk right up and introduce yourself! For now, why not leave me a comment below. Let me know how you deal with your FEAR, and tell me about one or two things you're doing to live a FEARless life.
"Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what is going to happen next." Gilda Radner
About five years ago, for just 50 cents and a little bit of courage, I bought myself a cancer guru. Of course, I didn't know the significance of that purchase at the time. But, the universe knew what I needed and brought her to me to help make sense of the nonsensical that is cancer.
That teacher was Gilda Radner and she came to me via a tattered copy of her book, It's Always Something. I stumbled upon it at a garage sale a few months after my breast cancer diagnosis, mastectomy and reconstructive surgeries. I remember standing in someone's front yard, the book in my hand, afraid to take it home because I knew how it ended.
And yet I couldn't put it down.
There was nothing else to do but plunk down two quarters and take Gilda home with me. I read the book in a day, and it affected me deeply.
Which brings us to this year. On April 5th, I will stand before approximately 300 people to deliver the keynote speech at the 5th Annual Blood Cancer Conference of the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society in Cincinnati, Ohio. The theme of the conference is "New Paths to Hope for Leukemia, Lymphoma & Myeloma."
As I prepare to give my talk, I'm thinking a lot about hope and what it means to me. Which brought me back to Gilda and her truth that "life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what is going to happen next."
Despite her terminal condition, Gilda lived the definition of hope.
When times are tough, we can wish things were better, or we can live our hope. The difference is all about action. Wishing is passive, while living our hope requires "having to change" and "taking the moment and making the best of it." Living your hope means being proactive and choosing healing over wishing.
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When a friend starts a conversation by asking, "Did I ever tell you that my mother was murdered?" it's clear she's ready to tell her story. Being present for each other and offering a safe place in which to share our stories is what friends do. We know being heard validates and heals.
What about the flip side? Do we find healing solely as the teller of the story? I don't think so. I think we're also healed by receiving stories. By standing witness to another's story we find similarities and connection. We learn that we are not alone.
For this reason, I'm proud to be one of 21 breast cancer survivors featured in a new eGuide series created by health and wellness advocate Gai Comans.
Breast Cancer Survivor Secrets, highlights 21 inspirational survivors sharing their secrets for empowerment, living through treatment and vibrant living. Gai was inspired to create the series by her own breast cancer odyssey, which began at the age of 38. Looking back, Gai realized the significance of hearing other survivors' stories and wanted to create a resource for other women.
Gai interviewed each woman, getting the conversation started by asking, “What do you wish you had been told when you were diagnosed with cancer?' The first eGuide in the series, "Empower Your Life" is the result of those interviews.
The second eGuide focuses on survivorship issues and presents each woman's story in response to the question, “What do you wish you had been told when your treatment for cancer was finished?”
I'm proud to be included among this amazing group of women and I'm really looking forward to witnessing their stories. Don't miss this opportunity to find similarities, connect and bask in the healing power of sharing our stories.
"There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you." Maya Angelou
"Any conversation that starts with “Did I ever tell you that my mother was murdered?” is going to be awkward." Lockey Maisonneuve
Yes, murdered. Don't miss Lockey's story, which she shares at Positively Positive. I'll wait here until you get back. You're going to have to experience it before we can continue.
"How could she think she didn’t have “permission” to ask me about my mother?"
The word "permission" was mine. I meant it literally. As close friends we've shared many personal facts about ourselves. Despite our openness, I was aware of a gaping hole when it came to Lockey's mother. There was no evasion. There was just scant information. For that reason, I felt until the moment she brought it up that I had no right to ask questions.
We were in Lockey's car, doubling back on the Garden State Highway because we had gotten momentarily lost. I was talking and Lockey interrupted to say I should ask her about the police station we had just driven past when I was finished. I did, and she answered my question with a question ("Did I ever tell you that my mother was murdered?") before proceeding to tell me her story.
I firmly believe that telling our story is a pivotal part of the healing process - from anything. The alternative, holding your story inside, causes agony because: 1) it festers and 2) it infects every part of your life.
Here's the way I've always seen it: Telling your story is revealing your truth. And, as we all know, "Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free." John 8:32
Of course, telling your truth is often far from easy:
"The truth will set you free, but first it will make you miserable." James A. Garfield
I know that misery. Immediately after my mastectomy and TRAM flap reconstruction surgery, I started meeting weekly with a therapist at my cancer center. We dug down deep into my cancer issues: anger, loneliness, fear, disappointment in others, stress, body image, etc., etc. I thought there was plenty to talk about without branching out beyond cancer, but my psyche had other ideas as the trauma of cancer often makes made past traumas resurface.
It was a miserable time, but telling my truth saved me. Sure, I cried a lot, but I told my story, worked through my truth and learned a lot in the process.
I believe so strongly in the healing power of telling your story that I made it the #2 simple secret to creating inspired healing, wellness and your joyous life after cancer in my book, You Can Thrive After Treatment. (Second only to "Show Up To Be Supported.")
To get started telling your story, follow these simple tips:
1. Tell your story when you are ready - No one but you can decide when you are ready to reveal your truth. There is no right or wrong time; there is only what works for you.
2. Find a safe environment - If you're reluctant to tell your story, perhaps it's because you have yet to find a trustworthy listener. Revealing our truth can make us feel vulnerable and uncomfortable. You shouldn't open up until you find a friend or family member, support group or therapist who you trust to hear what you have to say.
3. Think outside the box - Revealing your truth can be done in an infinite amount of ways. If you're shy about going public, start slowly by journaling, painting or any other creative endeavor that expresses what you want to say.
4. Own it - Embrace your story as an integral part of your history. It's made you who you are today and there's always something to learn from every experience.
We are all survivors of something and each of us has a story (or stories) to tell. But that doesn't mean we should all talk at the same time. Lockey's story reminds me that, just as I have healed by being heard, so can I help others heal by hearing their stories. Once again, the power of giving back in gratitude for the healing support I received is its own reward.
That's not to say I wouldn't appreciate being swept off my feet with a surprise flight to Paris as much as the next girl. But who are we kidding? Crazy expensive, over-the-top romantic gestures are rare. When it comes to maintaining a 25-year marriage, it's the little things (like Saturday morning tea and Sunday "gravy") that keep us connected day after day, week after week.
The same can be said for self-care. While a week-long stay at a spa/resort would be heavenly, it's the daily, little things that keep the well from running dry.
Of course, it's easy to prioritize everything else above self-care. I've yet to write a to-do list that includes self-care. That's because I tend to see work as the first priority of my day, with everything else coming in a distant second.
The first step to exercising self-care is awareness. Find a quiet moment and ask yourself, "What do I need? You may be surprised to learn you need silence, more sleep, or just some time off to be blissfully unproductive.
A month ago, I suddenly blurted out that I needed more fun and less all work/no play weekends. Two days later my friend Lockey asked me if I wanted to go with her into New York City the following Friday night to hear Kris Carr and Gabrielle Bernstein speak.
Of course! We drove into the city, enjoyed the presentation, had a wonderful dinner, drove back to her house and sat up until 5:30 a.m. talking. After a few hours of sleep, the snow outside persuaded me to stay a bit longer and hang out by the fireplace.
The following Friday evening I had an unexpected dinner with my friend and her husband, who I hadn't seen in many years. Last Friday evening, after a day that went in a completely different direction than originally planned, I ended up having another unexpected visit - this time with my mother.
I didn't realize what was happening until after my dinner with my friend and her husband. When I realized I had clearly stated what I needed, only to get it a few days later, I was floored. And then I remembered
I thought it was a bit woo-woo, but I tried and asked for something irrelevant. It didn't work. But it sure worked this time.
The morale of my story is simple: Stop burying your needs under obligations to work and others. Pay attention to yourself and state clearly what you need. Make the little things you need a priority and abundance will be yours.
Don't forget to be your own Valentine today and every day!
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